Draft Dilemma…


tree protection

tree under control

 

July 1st 2012: Excerpt from unpublished work.

Dilemma: The project for Renata Aazman weighs upon me. I can’t have the draft I sent her published because her criticisms were spot on – I don’t want to publish so ungracefully and one sidedly. I don’t want to be in battle. I need to lay down arms. I need to move on. Yet I need to be an author in this (her) anthology – I need to be in a place where that is appropriate, not in a place I will later regret.

Anyhow, that’s not why I came back to this page. I returned with an amused recognition about my creative blocks. May God forgive me for them – and that’s not blasphemy that’s genuine prayer. Nonetheless, the prayer takes a light hearted turn.

Draft:

Diagnosis Hopelessness

I’m so powerless it exhausts me.
The grass grows despite me,
Taller every day,
Waving at my cares, carelessly
As if to force me to see
It’s free

The honeysuckle on the lilac tree
Is strangling its delicate flowers
The tree will soon be dead
So strong is that persistent honeysuckle
So weak the perishing lilac tree.

You’d think that I could overcome
that little piece of grass but its an army
advancing and looming
like the honeysuckle on the tree
And thus I have no possible chance
Of saving the beleaguered lilac tree

Fear not, however. I have prowess
In relation to the sunshine
Who smiles at all who venture out
And touches all their hearts:
I stay in resolutely
It has no power over me.

I am fear and shadow
How can the sun reach me?

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